Arela
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Post by Arela on Jul 5, 2010 0:55:48 GMT -8
Arela shook her head. "You should just get it all done at once...putting it off doesn't make it go away..." She lectured. "Why me?" She turned to face him, a curious expression on her face.
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Post by Ichimaru Gin on Jul 5, 2010 0:59:28 GMT -8
"I have my assistant to take care of those. When she gets too tired I step in and finish them off' he said. "I brought you here because you're special to me. You should know that by now" he said, walking ahead of her towards the lake. "Coming?" he smiled as he turned towards her.
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Post by Arela on Jul 5, 2010 1:04:47 GMT -8
"I wish Starrk would finish them off once in awhile..." Arela mumbled, but rose her brow at the 'important to me' comment. "That's what I don't understand. Why do you have an attachment to me?" She followed him. "And what do you mean...Coming? What is it we're doing here?"
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Post by Ichimaru Gin on Jul 5, 2010 1:09:39 GMT -8
"Nothing in particular. Just enjoying our time here. But then again, I don't think you can learn that from books" he smiled. Walking over to the lake's shore he sat down on the small sandy patch as he invited her to do the same. "You asked me why I have an "attachment" to you...That's because once in the past, you made a heartless mastermind like me feel that. And I haven't been the same ever since" he smiled sadly.
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Post by Arela on Jul 5, 2010 1:16:30 GMT -8
Sitting beside him, she dusted her palms of the sand and looked around at the ground as she listened to him. "I did this...you say? I don't recall..." She admitted, her tone tinted with sadness just seeing his saddened expression.
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Post by Ichimaru Gin on Jul 5, 2010 1:23:03 GMT -8
"I didn't expect you to...That's why I was so reluctant to let you take that step. I wanted to respect your decision so I hoped that you'd remember at least something...I should've known better and kept you far away from all this..." he said, running a hand through his hair as he looked down at the ground.
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Post by Arela on Jul 5, 2010 1:30:14 GMT -8
At this, Arela almost laughed. "Whether now or previously, I doubt heaven or earth could sway a decision once I have made it. I am not one to back out of things, no matter what the challenge. The blame doesn't lie with you, of that I'm sure."
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Post by Ichimaru Gin on Jul 5, 2010 1:39:14 GMT -8
"Yes, but you didn't know what it was going to be like! I did! I should've done something..." he said, ruffing his hair with his hands as he tormented himself with his thoughts. "I can't stand you looking at me like a stranger...It puts a stake through me..."
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Post by Arela on Jul 5, 2010 1:43:33 GMT -8
"Then why...did I even do this to begin with..." She finally asked, putting her hand on her forehead. "What reasoning did I have...? Did I tell you? There must've been a reason...something I wouldn't have feared any consequence for..."
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Post by Ichimaru Gin on Jul 5, 2010 1:49:05 GMT -8
"Because of me..." he said, drawing his knees up to his chest as he rested his head on his knees with his hands clutching his head. "None of this would have happened if you hadn't met me..." he said.
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Post by Arela on Jul 5, 2010 2:01:31 GMT -8
Arela tilted her head in confusion. This man was nothing as he usually was...right now he was so utterly fragile...as though simply touching him would cause him to break. And yet her hand reached out for him. Putting her hand on his shoulder, she shook her head. "I don't believe that. I do not take pleasure in frivolous things, or things that hold no meaning to me. If I truly went this far for you, then that should tell you something. At least I think so...I don't quite understand it...I just know when you go through death for someone without regret or hesitation, it is not something that's meant to be mourned, or to cause you pain. But to let you know that you were loved." She paused. "Is love something to be regretted?"
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Post by Ichimaru Gin on Jul 5, 2010 2:08:59 GMT -8
"No..." he said in a painful tone. It was all he could say as he rested his head on his knees. He didn't know what to say...what to do...all he could feel was guilt. "If love is something so great why does it disappear and leave an ocean of pain after it?" he said, more to himself.
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Post by Arela on Jul 5, 2010 2:16:29 GMT -8
"Love does not disappear....ever." Arela rebuked almost instantaneously. Scooting closer to him, she tilted her head to look at him from the front. "Lord Ichimaru...this isn't good for you. If there is any hope in what you seek, it is not found in despair." Reaching forward, she lifted his face from his knees. "Do not hide your face."....
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Post by Ichimaru Gin on Jul 5, 2010 2:20:44 GMT -8
"I kinda lost my hope..." he smiled sadly but posed no resistance as she lifted his face, looking at her with shining blue eyes, glittering with forming tears.
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Post by Arela on Jul 5, 2010 2:39:52 GMT -8
Arela's brow furrowed seeing the tears in his eyes. "You're...crying?" She questioned the obvious. Looking into his eyes, she began to recall another scene, not unlike this.
'....if I ever try to hurt you...I want you to kill me...'
'How can you ask me that...'
Promise me...I'll only let you do it...
".....you're....tears..." She murmured, reaching up and touching one as it ran down his cheek. Pulling her finger back, she looked at her fingertip, then licked it. "They symbolize your pain...they're sour and salty..."
Without realizing it, a tear slid down Arela's cheek. Her vision blurring.
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